oh krishna.....Where are you?

O my lord!
Where are u ?

They say I wished out of free will to come and enjoy the earthy life..
But how could I be such a fool to decide this my lord..
U knew that this was the wrong choice being made ...
why havent u tried to stop me my lord ..
why did you allow me to enter into this never ending misery of life on earth ....

I know not what was I ...
what is that I have done in my past lives ..
nor do I have the knowledge to even realise since how many ages have I been away from your shelter..

I plead my lord only to you ...
since i realised myself in this birth all that I have known is you ..
help me cleanse my self completely ...
let me burn all my deeds and their bonded results ...
and become eligible to enter back to you my real home

When are you going to call me Krishna ....??

Disjointed Chords

When i cannot see my Lord's beautiful face,
Where do i for my empty heart find solace?
When away from the one who my insignificant heart also stole:
My heart that greives for my lover: how will i console?

I try singing a song:
But all i end up with are disjointed chords!
I try (in prayer) to fold my hands-
But find my tears wetting the sands!

Where are those blissful dreams?
Where are those moments with my Lord love-sealed?
i beg of You (O Madhava!) to take me back
For, at this moment, my life does all meaning lack!

Love, they say, appreciates closeness in miles-
But, in reverse, my woes do pile!
So close, yet so far apart drawn-
Here, alone, feeling like a lost fawn!

When my mind in circles like this does run-
Where are You, My dear Thief, hidden-having fun?
Come, let me drink the nectar of Your presence once again-
Please do not let my pleas go in vain!