oh krishna.....Where are you?

O my lord!
Where are u ?

They say I wished out of free will to come and enjoy the earthy life..
But how could I be such a fool to decide this my lord..
U knew that this was the wrong choice being made ...
why havent u tried to stop me my lord ..
why did you allow me to enter into this never ending misery of life on earth ....

I know not what was I ...
what is that I have done in my past lives ..
nor do I have the knowledge to even realise since how many ages have I been away from your shelter..

I plead my lord only to you ...
since i realised myself in this birth all that I have known is you ..
help me cleanse my self completely ...
let me burn all my deeds and their bonded results ...
and become eligible to enter back to you my real home

When are you going to call me Krishna ....??